Wednesday, March 23, 2011

Midweek Downers

A little blah today.  Not much to post, since I've been on break for a week and a half.  Not too much going on over here. 

Thought I am taking Colton to the doctor today.  I'm afraid he might be diabetic.  Out of nowhere he quit eatting but continues to drink and drink and drink.  Frequent urination, sudden mood swings...and top that all off with he weighs 113lbs.  But he's not fat, he's stocky and he's solid.  I guess we'll see what his doctor thinks.

 Because, without them I would not be me.  All four of my dogs were rescues.  All four have their own personalities and temperments. 

My favorite picture! Colton and his friend Jayvian snugglin on Bear.

Cash... the baby of the family :)

The love of my life.

Miss Stoli :)

Monday, March 14, 2011

Confidence is Beautiful

I finally had surgery last Thursday.  I thought I was going to die the whole morning before.  I hadn't slept, I felt like vomitting, and I really just wanted to run away.  But of course Tim was not going to let me do that.

All I remember was asking them how badly I was going to hurt when I woke up.  Then they gave me some medicine through IV which was supposed to make me happy I guess, I don't really remember.  They put a band around my face for oxygen and tied my arms to the chair, then the last thing I remember was being told they were putting meds in my iv to put me to sleep.  Then I woke up while they were stitching me up, but I fell back asleep.  When I woke up again, my new teeth were in.  They asked me if I wanted them to go get Tim and I said, "Right now!" HaHa. I guess there was a sense of urgency to have him with me.

My whole face was numb the rest of the day. Thursday night I didn't sleep for more than an hour, maybe two.  The numbness in my face wore off and I started to panick.  Even though it didn't hurt, it was just sore.  I think the anticipation of what everyone had told me was far worse than the pain I experienced.

Friday morning I went back to the dentist so they could take the denture out, clean it and make sure everything looked alright.  I was really worried that it would hurt and even the dental assistant told me it would probably hurt.  Tim came back to the room with me and held my hand while they removed it, which didn't really hurt at all.  It wasn't the most fun I've ever had, but it wasn't painful.  I got to look at my mouth...which was horrifying, but it's healing really well.  I'll go back this Wednesday to have all the stitches removed.

So, here I am, a few days out....little to no swelling left, no pain, just some mild discomfort.  And trying to get used to this feeling of having something in my mouth all the time. I am so happy that I finally got everything taken care of.  I feel like I can finally smile without everyone staring at me, like I can be me. It's funny the amount of confidence I have found in myself in the past few days.  I definitely feel much more upbeat and outgoing. 

Things are definietely looking up from here.  Look out, you have not seen Holly before.

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Frustrated and Tired

Our few days in Florida were amazing, however, I feel like I need a vacation after my vacation.  I'm exhausted.  But, no time to rest..... it's finals week.  Thankfully I only have one more test tonight and an essay to write and then I will be done with this term.  I am ready to put this whole term of school behind me and move on.

Tomorrow is my mouth surgery.  I am so nervous I haven't slept in two days. I would like to fast forward to when it's over with and I'm not in pain.

Today I called the doctor, because we had decided I would start clomid after getting back from Florida.  Well....  I call them and explain about my period last month.  They hang up, call back and say, "You need to come in for an ultrasound. And quit taking the progesterone."  They're afraid I might have cysts or palps on my ovaries or my uterus.  GREAT! This would really not suprise me, beings that my mom had her uterus removed when she was 25.  Since I have surgery tomorrow, and the doctor is gone all next week I have to wait until the 25th to be seen.



I'm not feeling optimistic, not even slightly.  I feel like quiting.

Sunday, February 27, 2011

Leaving on a Jet Plane.....

I can't believe how fast the past few months have gone!! Tonight I'm making dinner and Colton and I are heading to bed super early! We need to be on the road by 5am....so that means I'll probably have to get up at 4:00. Eeek! I don't think I've ever gotten up that early in my life.  I'm more likely to go to bed at 4 lately.

Our flight leaves from Moline at 9:02 and we should land in Orlando at 1:35pm (FL time). Neither of us have ever been on a plane so I'm super nervous! Colton still has absolutely no idea!  He thinks that he has to go to bed early because we are taking my mom to the air port to see her sister in Wyoming.  He thinks he has to go to school afterwards ha ha.  I can't wait to see his face!  I bought a new video camera so I can video tape his reaction at the air port. :)

My Aunt Kristen is absolutely amazing.  Without her I don't know that I would ever have the opportunity to take him to DW.  I can't thank her enough for this opportunity. 

This is where we are staying.....
Holy cow right?!?!? Six bedrooms. Pool. No hotel... I <3 it!! It's only like 250,000 times better than my house! LOL.

I hope I have everything packed.  I've gone over my list several times but I'm horrible at forgetting things. The nice part of this is that I don't have to pack a whole lot because there is a washer and dryer at the house.  I don't think anyone is going to notice if we rewear a shirt or something. Oh I am so excited! I probably won't get any sleep tonight.  That's the good thing about Colton not knowing, he won't be too excited to sleep. :)

I suppose I'll go make dinner and get Colton in the shower and everything.  It's going to be a long day tomorrow and 4am is not that far away.....


Saturday, February 26, 2011

My Life in Them

This Woman's Work




I think this song would resignate with any man married to a woman going through fertility issues. Any man that has seen the desire, the longing in his wife's eyes. Has physically held her while she feels like she's losing her mind...being left behind.

Another Lost Soul

"Hi... I heard from (insert name here) that you take in pit bulls?"

At least three times a month I get voice mails like this. Sometimes they are families that can no longer "keep" their dog for one reason or another and sometimes they are people that have irresponsibly let their dogs breed and can not find someone to "buy" the last of the puppies. Before Stoli's puppies were adopted I recieved a phone call from someone with six nine week old puppies that they couldn't "sell." Those calls are always frustrating. Not only did I have absolutely no room for another dog but six? And by the way did you plan on spaying your female? Do the puppies even have their shots? So frustrating!

On Thursday I had plans. I planned out a pretty busy day. Take Colton to school, get some homework done, take Tim to work, go to the dentist, and then to school early to play with the similator before class from 6-8. After class, dinner with Tim like every Thursday.

Except it ended up nothing at all like I had planned. On my way to the dentist I got an all too familiar phone call. Two stray pit bulls were found in a neighboring town that does not allow pit bulls. A distant cousin of mine works for the city and he picked them up. He was keeping them at the city garage in a large kennel. Someone was taking the male dog so the girl puppy still needed somewhere to go. The county Animal Control gave him five days to find them homes or they would step in and take them. Thursday was day five.

I suppose if you don't have much experience with shelters and pit bulls you would suspect that they would be cleaned up and put up for adoption. Unfortunately, you are very wrong. In this county when stray pit bulls are found in cities with BSL laws they go straight into the gas chamber. No bath, no love, no chance for an adoption. Poof! You were found wandering where you "don't belong" so you get the death penalty!

I'm leaving for Florida early Monday morning and won't be back until Friday. The following week I have finals and on the 10th I have surgery. Tim and I had agreed that we would not take in any fosters until after my surgery when I am up for it. However, as the hours wore on and all my networking was coming up FAIL! I finally emailed the rescue that we foster for asking if they had any ideas. Twenty minutes later....

I called them back to say I would take her. I suppose with everything going on it's going to be even more chaotic around here. But, this poor puppy did not ask for the hand she was dealt any more than I had asked for the phone call. I couldn't say no.

I had planned on picking her up at 8:30 that night but when the family came to pick up the male dog, she freaked out. Lord knows how long they were wandering the streets together. They may have been from the same home or they could have simply found each other. Whichever it was, they were definietely attached. So, to make things easier I went to pick her up early while the male dog was still there.

Poor baby was covered in feeces, urine and dirt. She is somewhere around 8 or 9 months, has an infection in her eye is nearly 15 pounds under weight. I immediately took her home and put her in a nice warm bath. She sat there very calmy and let me bathe her. At one point she even began to fall asleep. :) The warmth and comfort was exactly what this poor girl needed.

Meet CoCo....



As you can see she knows how to sit when asked. She was very good with the other dogs when we let her play with them one on one. Sometimes our dogs don't do so well when there's two of them and then a new dog, they tend to get too rowdy. But she was very submissive and rolled right over to her back and kissed all their faces. She even curled up on the couch with Stoli for a nap. I think she'll do just fine. Hope she finds a good family very soon.

We took her to the vet yesterday where she will stay for the weekend to get all of her shots and checks done. Then monday morning she will be spayed and Tim will pick her up on Tuesday.