Sunday, February 27, 2011

Leaving on a Jet Plane.....

I can't believe how fast the past few months have gone!! Tonight I'm making dinner and Colton and I are heading to bed super early! We need to be on the road by 5am....so that means I'll probably have to get up at 4:00. Eeek! I don't think I've ever gotten up that early in my life.  I'm more likely to go to bed at 4 lately.

Our flight leaves from Moline at 9:02 and we should land in Orlando at 1:35pm (FL time). Neither of us have ever been on a plane so I'm super nervous! Colton still has absolutely no idea!  He thinks that he has to go to bed early because we are taking my mom to the air port to see her sister in Wyoming.  He thinks he has to go to school afterwards ha ha.  I can't wait to see his face!  I bought a new video camera so I can video tape his reaction at the air port. :)

My Aunt Kristen is absolutely amazing.  Without her I don't know that I would ever have the opportunity to take him to DW.  I can't thank her enough for this opportunity. 

This is where we are staying.....
Holy cow right?!?!? Six bedrooms. Pool. No hotel... I <3 it!! It's only like 250,000 times better than my house! LOL.

I hope I have everything packed.  I've gone over my list several times but I'm horrible at forgetting things. The nice part of this is that I don't have to pack a whole lot because there is a washer and dryer at the house.  I don't think anyone is going to notice if we rewear a shirt or something. Oh I am so excited! I probably won't get any sleep tonight.  That's the good thing about Colton not knowing, he won't be too excited to sleep. :)

I suppose I'll go make dinner and get Colton in the shower and everything.  It's going to be a long day tomorrow and 4am is not that far away.....


Saturday, February 26, 2011

My Life in Them

This Woman's Work




I think this song would resignate with any man married to a woman going through fertility issues. Any man that has seen the desire, the longing in his wife's eyes. Has physically held her while she feels like she's losing her mind...being left behind.

Another Lost Soul

"Hi... I heard from (insert name here) that you take in pit bulls?"

At least three times a month I get voice mails like this. Sometimes they are families that can no longer "keep" their dog for one reason or another and sometimes they are people that have irresponsibly let their dogs breed and can not find someone to "buy" the last of the puppies. Before Stoli's puppies were adopted I recieved a phone call from someone with six nine week old puppies that they couldn't "sell." Those calls are always frustrating. Not only did I have absolutely no room for another dog but six? And by the way did you plan on spaying your female? Do the puppies even have their shots? So frustrating!

On Thursday I had plans. I planned out a pretty busy day. Take Colton to school, get some homework done, take Tim to work, go to the dentist, and then to school early to play with the similator before class from 6-8. After class, dinner with Tim like every Thursday.

Except it ended up nothing at all like I had planned. On my way to the dentist I got an all too familiar phone call. Two stray pit bulls were found in a neighboring town that does not allow pit bulls. A distant cousin of mine works for the city and he picked them up. He was keeping them at the city garage in a large kennel. Someone was taking the male dog so the girl puppy still needed somewhere to go. The county Animal Control gave him five days to find them homes or they would step in and take them. Thursday was day five.

I suppose if you don't have much experience with shelters and pit bulls you would suspect that they would be cleaned up and put up for adoption. Unfortunately, you are very wrong. In this county when stray pit bulls are found in cities with BSL laws they go straight into the gas chamber. No bath, no love, no chance for an adoption. Poof! You were found wandering where you "don't belong" so you get the death penalty!

I'm leaving for Florida early Monday morning and won't be back until Friday. The following week I have finals and on the 10th I have surgery. Tim and I had agreed that we would not take in any fosters until after my surgery when I am up for it. However, as the hours wore on and all my networking was coming up FAIL! I finally emailed the rescue that we foster for asking if they had any ideas. Twenty minutes later....

I called them back to say I would take her. I suppose with everything going on it's going to be even more chaotic around here. But, this poor puppy did not ask for the hand she was dealt any more than I had asked for the phone call. I couldn't say no.

I had planned on picking her up at 8:30 that night but when the family came to pick up the male dog, she freaked out. Lord knows how long they were wandering the streets together. They may have been from the same home or they could have simply found each other. Whichever it was, they were definietely attached. So, to make things easier I went to pick her up early while the male dog was still there.

Poor baby was covered in feeces, urine and dirt. She is somewhere around 8 or 9 months, has an infection in her eye is nearly 15 pounds under weight. I immediately took her home and put her in a nice warm bath. She sat there very calmy and let me bathe her. At one point she even began to fall asleep. :) The warmth and comfort was exactly what this poor girl needed.

Meet CoCo....



As you can see she knows how to sit when asked. She was very good with the other dogs when we let her play with them one on one. Sometimes our dogs don't do so well when there's two of them and then a new dog, they tend to get too rowdy. But she was very submissive and rolled right over to her back and kissed all their faces. She even curled up on the couch with Stoli for a nap. I think she'll do just fine. Hope she finds a good family very soon.

We took her to the vet yesterday where she will stay for the weekend to get all of her shots and checks done. Then monday morning she will be spayed and Tim will pick her up on Tuesday.

Wednesday, February 23, 2011

For The First Time



She's all laid up in bed with a broken heart
While i'm drinking jack all alone in my local bar
And we don't know how we got into this mad situation
Only doing things out of frustration

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
She needs me now but I can't seem to find a time
I've git a new job now in the umemploymentline
And we don't know we got into this mess it's a gods test
Someone hulp us cause we're doing our best

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Sit talking up all night
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

She's in line at the door with her head held high
While I just lost my job but didn't lose my flight
But we both know how we're gonna make it work when it hurts
When you pick yourself up you get kicked in the dirt

Trying to make it work but man these times are hard
But we're gunna start by drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears

Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time

Drinking old cheap bottles of wine
Saying things we haven't for a while, a while yeah
We're smiling but we're close to tears
Even after all these years
We just now got the feeling that we're meeting
For the first time
For the first time
Oh, for the first time
Yeah, for the first time

Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby
Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby


Oh these times are hard
Yeah they're making us crazy
Don't give up on me baby

Wednesday, February 16, 2011

The Box

In the past few years that my husband and I have been together we've learned to love around each other. By all means we love each other...each other's strengths, and moving around each other's flaws. Where he is flawed I move in and where I am flawed he is there with a strength. For us, this is just how we work. And it seems to apply with just about everything. He is writing a book, I edit it. I can't reach the spices in the top of the cabinet, he nonchallantly puts it on the counter. We seem to flow this way.

However, there is one thing that we are completely opposite about. I wonder, how many women can relate to this situation.

To explain I am going to use a box. A really heavy box. I don't think this has ever been a real situation in our house but, let's roll with it!


Now, the box has been sitting there for, let's say, three days. We've both walked by it without a second thought. Until about 11pm right before we go to bed, or in the middle of a movie, suddenly I remember the box. The box I meant to move yesterday. At this point the box has to be moved! So I lift and prod, making every attempt to somehow move this box to where I want it. But it barely budges.

In the mean time...
(Not Tim, obviously.)
He says, "Hey! I'll move it tomorrow!" and then "It's been sitting there for three days it's not going to hurt anything to wait til tomorrow!" But I still try, at this point it has to be moved before anything else can be done! I don't know why, but it just does. Eventually he'll be tired of listening to me curse and kick the box that he'll get up and move it for me. But not before telling me I need to "relax" and not before reminding me (under his breath) that "The damn thing's been there for three freakin days!"


I seem to decide that things need to be done right now. For whatever reason. The dishes, laundry, budgeting. Whatever it is. And usually right before we go to bed, or on the way home from taking Colton to school (which is my only down time for the day). For whatever reason this is just the way it is.

Thursday, February 10, 2011

Let's Do This!!!

Today is a day of motivation!! :)

To start off with I am down to my last half pack of cigarettes. I bought a box of patches and bags of life saver's and tootsie pops. Not to mention the 7lbs of gummy bears we have! We were supposed to quit today but Tim's working a lot of over time hours and I have a horrible mid term paper to write tonight. Tim has tomorrow off so it should be very interesting to say the least. At least Colton's at his dad's until Saturday.

Now, I'm watching Oprah and Jennifer Hudson is on talking about how Weight Watchers helped her lose 80lbs. Cliche I know but I just got incredibly motivated. I'm certainly not going to spend money meeting with weight watchers people but I did get the calculator off a website and also a list of foods and how many points they are based on portions.

I wonder how this will affect not smoking since usually people gain weight when they quit smoking. Either way I'm going to do this. I have spent a lot of time trying to convince myself that I am completely comfortable at almost 200lbs. and that I am comfortable in my own skin. I'm tired of feeling like this and it's starting to dramatically effect my marriage. I'm becoming more focused on what I look like versus other women and how I think Tim looks at me. I'm smart enough to know that I how I think he feels is my issue, not his. But somewhere between that thought and the next I lose the reality.

So, rather than going another day like this...it is time to change things! Also, I understand that losing weight can increase my chances of getting pregnant. So why the heck not?

If you don't like something there's no use in continually sitting back and complaining...you have to get up and do something about it!

Goodbye Marlboro man...goodbye comfortfood...goodbye mountain dew....

Sunday, February 6, 2011

Sunday Funday!

Some pictures from this week.

Finally got new glasses!

Tim helping me do research for a paper.

Stoli is one happy girl!!! Because....

All the puppies have been adopted!!

My set up for today. Computer, school books, and mountain dew. Ahhh the life.


So far today I've successfully rearranged the living room, did two loads of laundry, one set of dishes, finished one essay, and caught up on class online discussion boards. Domestic Goddess to the rescue!! :) Tim is at work today. Kind of hoping it's a late night since they've been cutting back hours but would also love for him to come home early. Colton's busy playing with his best friend before dinner.

On day 3 of this cycle of progesterone. Feeling fantastic! And very optimistic about the next few months. I have yet to get my period in the same week each month but I have had one the last three months and that's more periods than I've had in three years! lol. So I'm holding out hope for March and April.

The super bowl is today... could care less. But apparently all my friends on facebook are having these big bowl game parties and apparently by 5:25 it is acceptable to be drunk on Super Bowl Sunday. *sigh* So glad I quit drinking... this reminds me... I have 8 months of sobriety now! Yay me!

Hope everyone's having a fantastic Sunday evening. By the way... The ticker to the right tells me where people are viewing my blog from. So, I feel the need to say Cedar Rapids friends... Leave a friggin comment! Ha. Ha.

Thursday, February 3, 2011

Fantabulous!!

I slept for 10 hours last night. Woo hoo!! I am in an absolutely fantabulous mood! There's definitely a good flip side to being bipolar! Just in time too. I've been down all week and it was starting to get old!

Besides I'm a little behind on some of my school work but not much, and my taxes are not going to be here til late February... EEK! Kinda worried about. I really really has to be here before the 28th when we leave for Florida! Kinda cutting it close.

Anyways.... good things good things....

Oooh I got my license back! Yes, I was without a license. That happens when you have a bazillion bills to pay and miss a payment on traffic fines. Eek again! Hmmm what else is going on? Oh, next summer I am going to San Fransisco for a piercing school. This is, if I'm not pregnant. I've always had a million things I've wanted to do with my life. A million different goals and dreams. Why leave them as dreams? I think graduating last weekend made me realize I can do anything. And I have amazing support from my husband and my family. So, it's something to really look into.

Anyways, time to go get Colton from school. Just touching base and all since I'm in such a good mood. Then all my posts are so whoa as me!