Let's Do This!!!

Today is a day of motivation!! :)

To start off with I am down to my last half pack of cigarettes. I bought a box of patches and bags of life saver's and tootsie pops. Not to mention the 7lbs of gummy bears we have! We were supposed to quit today but Tim's working a lot of over time hours and I have a horrible mid term paper to write tonight. Tim has tomorrow off so it should be very interesting to say the least. At least Colton's at his dad's until Saturday.

Now, I'm watching Oprah and Jennifer Hudson is on talking about how Weight Watchers helped her lose 80lbs. Cliche I know but I just got incredibly motivated. I'm certainly not going to spend money meeting with weight watchers people but I did get the calculator off a website and also a list of foods and how many points they are based on portions.

I wonder how this will affect not smoking since usually people gain weight when they quit smoking. Either way I'm going to do this. I have spent a lot of time trying to convince myself that I am completely comfortable at almost 200lbs. and that I am comfortable in my own skin. I'm tired of feeling like this and it's starting to dramatically effect my marriage. I'm becoming more focused on what I look like versus other women and how I think Tim looks at me. I'm smart enough to know that I how I think he feels is my issue, not his. But somewhere between that thought and the next I lose the reality.

So, rather than going another day like this...it is time to change things! Also, I understand that losing weight can increase my chances of getting pregnant. So why the heck not?

If you don't like something there's no use in continually sitting back and complaining...you have to get up and do something about it!

Goodbye Marlboro man...goodbye comfortfood...goodbye mountain dew....