(Colton and Holly at Skyler's grave August 2010)
Four years ago today Skyler Grace passed away. She came so quickly into my world and was gone so soon but left a million tiny foot prints on my heart. There is not a day that goes by that I don't think of her, yern for her, smile for her, and miss her.
This year I feel good. I feel optimistic and I am able to think about her with a light heart and smile. This is not to say that I have no shed my share of tears today...that I have not choked back many things I've wanted to say.... But I feel "Okay" today.
2010 in general has been a very good year for me, maybe that has something to do with it. Maybe, because I am more secure in myself, more content with the position I am in life, maybe that has a impact on how I am viewing her today. Of course, I am aching, not a day goes by that I don't ache...
Or maybe I just kept myself busy all day so as to be in better spirits. I spent all day playing with Stoli's puppies and chit chatting with Colton and took my boys out for dinner.
Of course now that I am blogging, now that I am thinking, now that the sun has gone down and the curtains are drawn.....
I am so sorry for your loss. It's been 11 years since we lost our little Ian, and still it manages to sting in ways that still impress upon the ehart the magnitude of such a loss. As you may know already, it does lighten with time and we are able to start moving our live in more managable and progressive positions, but we never forget. My heart and my compassion go out to you and yours.
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