Confidence is Beautiful

I finally had surgery last Thursday.  I thought I was going to die the whole morning before.  I hadn't slept, I felt like vomitting, and I really just wanted to run away.  But of course Tim was not going to let me do that.

All I remember was asking them how badly I was going to hurt when I woke up.  Then they gave me some medicine through IV which was supposed to make me happy I guess, I don't really remember.  They put a band around my face for oxygen and tied my arms to the chair, then the last thing I remember was being told they were putting meds in my iv to put me to sleep.  Then I woke up while they were stitching me up, but I fell back asleep.  When I woke up again, my new teeth were in.  They asked me if I wanted them to go get Tim and I said, "Right now!" HaHa. I guess there was a sense of urgency to have him with me.

My whole face was numb the rest of the day. Thursday night I didn't sleep for more than an hour, maybe two.  The numbness in my face wore off and I started to panick.  Even though it didn't hurt, it was just sore.  I think the anticipation of what everyone had told me was far worse than the pain I experienced.

Friday morning I went back to the dentist so they could take the denture out, clean it and make sure everything looked alright.  I was really worried that it would hurt and even the dental assistant told me it would probably hurt.  Tim came back to the room with me and held my hand while they removed it, which didn't really hurt at all.  It wasn't the most fun I've ever had, but it wasn't painful.  I got to look at my mouth...which was horrifying, but it's healing really well.  I'll go back this Wednesday to have all the stitches removed.

So, here I am, a few days out....little to no swelling left, no pain, just some mild discomfort.  And trying to get used to this feeling of having something in my mouth all the time. I am so happy that I finally got everything taken care of.  I feel like I can finally smile without everyone staring at me, like I can be me. It's funny the amount of confidence I have found in myself in the past few days.  I definitely feel much more upbeat and outgoing. 

Things are definietely looking up from here.  Look out, you have not seen Holly before.